Name's Marie!

Sometimes it’s hard to believe it’s possible for me to improve in anything. I’m barely starting to believe in myself and trying new things all the time, twenty one years later, and yet I still don’t have as much confidence as I should have. It’s crazy how in the back of my mind I JUST KNOW I CAN do ANYTHING if I just DO IT, but the fear of failure and fear of getting hurt and the fear of looking stupid build up these walls that stop me from going for what I want. Ugh. Stupid, stupid walls!

Too much time on my hands

I almost bought 50 Shades of Grey on the Kindle after reading the sample but I don’t know how to pay with a different card alksjdf;laewifjslfkjaew;lfj

My dad is talking about me getting lasik eye surgery. Never thought that would be an option for me because it’s so expensive, and because my eyes are sooo bad that it seems like they can’t be fixed. I’ve worn glasses since freakin’ kindergarten so I’m used to being half blind, walking around with no glasses or at night (even with my glasses/contacts on I can’t see a thing in the dark, even if there’s light) and using my hands to get around. It’s so weird thinking about waking up in the morning and being able to see. Even when I have contacts on, my eyesight is still bad. It’s kinda mind blowing thinking about this! lol maybe one day I can get the surgery. But my glasses have always been a part of me.. it’d be weird having such a big change… but.. I think I would cry if I opened my eyes and saw everything clearly, without contacts or glasses on.